Biting Feelings Chapter 18 - Eunhae

His mind was still foggy when Donghae's lips left his, making him blink a few times. It had been a while and those warm hands on his face was making him blush. The student started to remember why he was there in the first place and grabbed the bassist's hands with his own, breathing in deeply.

-I...I'm sorry I left without saying a word, he finally said.

Hyukjae lowered the elder's hands, looking straight at him.

-I...I kind of freaked out...
-Was it your first time?

Always so direct. The younger man only blushed more as a response. Donghae chuckled and dragged the younger with him, aiming for the chairs. Nobody else was there, Donghae's bass was against the long table and the case just on top of it. There was a few empty glasses around too, and considering the after taste Donghae's kiss has left on his lips, he would say the elder should be drunk by now. He didn't look like he was, acting as usual.

-Still cute as always, Donghae finally said with a grin. I don't hold a grudge, if you are worried about it. Though...I was sad you didn't come by sooner.
-...Sorry.

The elder smiled widely, making the student sit before doing the same. He was still holding on to Hyukjae's hands, though the younger one had tried to let go. Why was it that he wanted to see the man in front of him smile so much? He was adorable anyway, looking down and blushing, obviously shy, but he couldn't understand why he was happy he popped up from no where. Still, Hyukjae was there and that was all he needed for now. He actually missed that blushing face, now that he was thinking about it. Donghae couldn't understand his own feelings since he never felt them before. He only trusted his guts, and his guts were telling him that he wanted that young man's presence right now.

Hyukjae was trying to get his questions into words, not that easy when the elder kept looking at him wih those deep and sparkly eyes. When he finally lift up his eyes, he breathe in deeply, clutching inconsciously to the elder's hands.

-Can...Can I ask you something?
-Sure, what is it?

Unlike Donghae, Hyukjae knew why he was so nervous. It wasn't only his shyness, he wasn't such an extreme case. After a few meetings, he should have been used to his presence and me way more confortable. No, it was something else, and though it took him time to realise it fully, looking at Donghae at that moment, he knew why he wanted to know so badly what this night had been.

-Wh...why did you...I mean...Why did we...
-Why did we what?

Was he acting innocent only when he wanted to or what? Hyukjae looked away, but this time, the elder didn't let it happen for long. He let go of this adorable piece of cuteness's hands and made him turn his head with a finger, the elder's face a little bit too close for the student's confort.

-What is it, the bassist asked. Are you wondering why I had sex with you?

So blunt again...The musician touched softly the younger man's face, his thumb gently stoking this soft skin. Hyukjae was pretty much speechless at that moment, though he was still seeking an answer. How did he no realise when the elder slipped his hand slowly behind his head to pull him into another kiss, this time much harsher, biting his lower lip, was beyond the young man, but he did find himself hold up a moan. He whinced when that little bite actually cut his lip, pulling off from the elder right after. He licked his lip before putting his hands on the elder's chest. He was too shy at that moment to look at the bassist.

-Can...Can I know, Hyukjae asked.
-Well...

Donghae's voice trailed off, like if he was distracted by something.

-Why wouldn't I want to? You are cute, sweet...beautiful...

Something was weird. Hyukjae looked up, only to be face to face with Donghae dark eyes, even darker than usual. He was staring at his lip, leaning closer and closer. The elder then licked his lips, his hands going down Hyukjae's shoulders to his wrists, gentle. The younger one licked his lip again, more out of nervousness now.

-Donghae?

The musician looked up to his younger friend's eyes, his eyes having a weird color now. He looked half there, his expressionless face changing as he smiled. It was so out of Donghae's character, it scares the younger man for a moment. He took one step back. The elder didn't move, but he was still holding on to his wrist, so the student wouldn't go far. He smiled even more, showing, for the first time, his teeth. His canines looked sharp, a lot more than they should be, and his fixation of Hyukjae's lower lip made the latter feel a cold shiver down his spine.

No...It didn't exist.

His pale skin seemed even paler now because of his dark gaze, and though he wasn't holding thightly to the younger one, his grip felt a lot stronger than it should be. Moonlight's question came back to Hyukjae's mind, and before he could even realise it, he asked Donghae his age. It seemed to wake the elder from his state, looking right at Hyukjae with an innocent look, going back to normal.

-Uhn?
-How...How old are you, Hyukjae asked again. Because...I'm only eighteen. I just...
-I'm older than you.
-Seriously...
-...Why so suddenly?
-I...I don't do one night stands. I...I never meant it to be. I know almost nothing about you and you know almost nothing of me, and yet, you always act so nicely around me. I'm just...really confused. I don't understand what's going on. I don't know who you really are other than how you act with me.

Donghae pouted. He walked toward the younger man, pushing him gently towards the long table, releasing his wrists to corner the other man between himself and the makeup table, hid hands against the wooden piece of furniture. Donghae didn't look mad, or sad, or happy, or anything. He was back to an expressionless face, his face only inches away. He looked serious though.

-Do you regret it, the elder asked.

Hyukjae simply shook his head. It had been a night to remember, that was the least he could say.

-I guess I should've share more, but you have to do the same, okay? So, if you don't mind, let me invite you over to my place so we can talk without being interrupted. I won't force you if you don't want to.
-...That...that sounds good to me...

Hyukjae got dragged out of the bar, not as forcefully as last time. He got the time to see where they were going exactly, blushing when he remembered the last time he was around. They did talk a little on the way, so once Donghae opened the door of his appartment, they were already in a good mood. They had talked about things like sports, the news, regular things that had nothing to do with the both of them. It was light enough for when Donghae invited Hyukjae to sit down, he had seen the younger man smile a couple of times.

Strangely, it had made his smile appear too.

The bassist appartment was quite dark. Everything was neat, cleaned up and organised. It was really confortable too, though there was not the welcoming feeling. It was a place to sleep and to eat, not really to invite people over, unless it was to head towards the bedroom. The elder offered him a drink, a coke, then sat down next to him, still smiling.

-Let's talk.